Man Crush #1: Noah Centineo

Okay, new series is up again. Yeah, I know I don’t post a lot and I’ve started a LOT of series but hey, this is me and I have loads of things stuck in this small brain of mine 😉

So, Noah Centineo. Yes, a lot of people are talking about him for his performance in the movie To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before. Okay, I’ll admit. I am also one of those girls 😂 but hey! I have a different story why I like him and the movie itself. Yay, double feature!

So, to make a long story short, I watched the movie in the first place because of someone that I just met in one of my entrance exams. Very random, isn’t it?

Oh hey, now that I’m already opening up to you, you are already my bestfriend!!

GOING BACK TO THE STORY! So I met this guy in a school office before we took our entrance exam. He is also applying for that school (hopefully he enrolls there the next school year 😂) and he looks JUST EXACTLY LIKE NOAH. Sure, I haven’t seen the movie by the time but I happen to have WiFi so I know how handsome Noah is. I don’t really have a crush on Noah that time but when I saw this guy, I already like him in a snap of a finger! I know girls can relate to this feeling. You might not publicly say it but I know that you are also fantasizing stuff with a guy who you just passed by. If not, well maybe I need to go to a therapist.

So yeah, I just had a crush on this guy especially that I can see him in real life and not just on my phone. So, I took the opportunity to have a “picture with him”. If you don’t know what that means, it’s basically acting like you’re taking a photo of yourself but you’re actually taking a picture of him. Mind you, I did a pretty great job.

of course, I will never post that here. Privacy!!

After all that entrance exam, I got home and watched TATBILB right away. And yeah, that’s when I realize how cute Noah is. Basically, I actually have a crush on the person I saw in real life which also reminds me of Noah.

End of story! Please tell me I’m not as insane as I think of myself right now.

To wrap it all up, here’s a last look of Peter Kavinsky 💙


Noah Centineo is my everything

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Thanks a lot for reading my blogs! If you’re new here, welcome! I just write about random things like this. I might go deep or be very childish at times, you get the idea 😊



You Can’t Do Everything

Hello again after a long time of inactivity. Like other bloggers, my reason is because I’m busy (specifically to schoolworks). I’ve been spending most of my days learning in school, squeezing every last juice of my brain. Besides school, I’ve been working with a lot of things like sports, drawing and currently, music production.

I think this is a great intro for my point in this blog.

Today, I’m going to talk about our limits. How long does it take for you to reach your limit?

This past few months, I’ve been thinking about a lot of things. I know for a fact that I am able to do well in different aspects that’s why I’ve been currently pushing my boundaries, trying to maintain a good performance at all times. Sometimes, that is just not possible.

We also happen to get tired. There comes a time when we just want to sit down and stop time to have some fresh air for a while.

I am currently in that position.

Sure, I want to continue. Besides, it would help a lot for me to keep on hanging at the top. I don’t want to waste all of the efforts I did to reach this point, but something is holding me back.

Something is telling me that this is not meant for me.

A lot of people might be dreaming of being in my position right now thinking that it would be such a waste to stop.

That is the point.

I am thinking of stopping because a lot of people wants to be in my place.

I know that I am not meant for this, and I’m going to leave a space for someone who truly deserves it, someone who would do anything just to get in that position.

I think I’ve been doing a lot of things lately that things start to get out of hand.

Do you think my decision would be best for me?

Love lots,


Shuffle Song #2: Angel:Voices by Virtual Self

Hello, how are you doing?

I feel the time has come for another Shuffle Song!

I do know that the first one is also from Virtual Self but hey, y’all can’t stop me from talking about that haha!

“Angel:Voices” is a recent track from Virtual Self which is a spin-off of “Ghost Voices”.

It is already known that Virtual Self has 2 personas: Pathselector and technic_angel. It turns out that technic_angel made her version of Ghost Voices which is a work of Pathselector.

If I were to choose between the two, I’d pick Angel:Voices since it gave more life and emotion to me. Ghost Voices is also an awesome track and gives off some “chilly” vibe, but I’m more of a fan of “emotional” tracks (if you get what I mean). Anyways, I love both of them.

I’ve always been curious about the story behind Virtual Self. Who are Pathselector and technic_angel? How do they relate to each other? What does their tracks tell us? And most especially, what is the meaning of the phrases on their music videos?!?!?!

With this new project of Porter Robinson, I could definitely say that he is an absolute genius.

I can’t wait for his future releases! I also do hope that he releases a new track under Porter Robinson, not his alias (Virtual Self).

I highly suggest to listen to this!

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Stay happy, everyone!


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I Now Have An Instagram Account

I do know that almost every people has an Instagram account and I think you also thought that I’ve been using Instagram for ages now.

Well, you’re kinda wrong. And right.

That doesn’t matter now!

I just made an Instagram account yesterday (and already have 2 photos posted). Recently, I was a bit curious about photo editing and decided to take a shot. I actually enjoyed it!

My future edits will be posted under the username @kaiphotoedits and I hope that you’ll check it out!

As of now, here’s what I have:

I’m really looking forward to improving in this type of medium.

Drop your usernames in the comments! I’ll check them out!

See you on Instagram!

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Follow me on Instagram

Have an awesome day!


Let’s talk about HEARTBREAK

Okay, what I’m going to address is something different with what I usually write but we all feel the same way about it.

Most people say, “You Only Live Once”. Do what you want before they all turn to regrets. Say what you want to say before it’s all too late.

And when it comes to one’s feelings, this is a tough thing to do.

I know that all of you are struggling with telling the truth, coming clean with how you feel for someone (or at least used to). You’d always think that the person you like would most probably turn you down in the end.

When I first had a crush on someone, I didn’t let anyone know about that. As soon as he switched schools, I already knew that I’m too late.

Everyone has been in this situation (if you still haven’t, congrats). What if you actually told someone how you felt for him/her? What difference would it make?

I already did. A year ago.
He already knew for a very long time now, but what hurts the most is that he doesn’t talk to me like how he used to. He leaves the table every time I come to sit. He ignores me when I’m telling him something, especially online.
I feel like a disease to him.
Just because I told him the truth.
I knew that I might lose my best friend if I told him, but I did anyway. Now here I am, thinking if I didn’t tell him that I have feelings for him. Would he still he talking to me?
“People come and go”, as some say.
But it really hurts to know the fact that he’s leaving my life.
If he doesn’t have the same feelings for me, that’s fine.
But I don’t want to lose him completely.
Do I deserve to hurt like this?
I guess I do.

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Sleepy as f*ck

I hope you’re not as sad as me today!


I’m Leaving!

Hello! How are things going?

Things are going pretty well for me for the moment. I’m quite optimistic right now, actually 😂

I’m currently on Grade 10, the final year of Junior High. This year is also the time for me and my classmates to figure out what comes after, where to go next. Usually, we leave our school after Grade 10 since our school doesn’t offer the strand/track that we chose to be in. So, here I am, looking for universities to welcome me to their home.

I’ve always loved the idea of transferring schools because I haven’t done it before. I’ve been in my current school for more than 10 years now and I think I’ve had enough of it. I think my stay in this prison cell is long enough already.

If you still don’t know me, I always want to see something new, something different. So changing school is more of an excitement rather than a sad moment. Sure, I’ll miss all the memories and friends I made here, but I want to seek my true self, who am I and what am I going to be. The only way to find that out is to switch schools.

Finally, it’s my turn to choose what strand I should pick. I’ve been jealous at my sister when she did the same 2 years ago. Now, I can choose what to study! Finally, I can now study what I do for a hobby in school!

I’ve just started Grade 10 a month ago but I am already applying since I don’t wanna lose the slots. I just do hope to get in my top school choice!

By the way, I chose Arts and Design Track (obviously). It’s the only choice and the best one I have!

I should probably start studying now for the entrance exams, right?

Wish me luck!!!

Have you ever switched school? What does it feel like? Share your stories in the comments! I think I’d need them


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Enjoy the rest of your day!

– Kai


So yeah, our school year started again ugh.

How are you all? Are you currently in school? On a vacation, maybe? Or perhaps have a job already?

Anyways, my topic has nothing to do with school 😂

So, regrets. Big word, isn’t it?

I know you’re on the same page, that you also had some regrets. It may be small like not leaving the house on time or something big like betraying someone.

Here I’ll share one of my regrets which is just a small one but could possible changed my life.

My family and I happen to talk about Taekwondo last night because it could be my sister’s P.E for this year. My sister and I also used to take Taekwondo lesson when we were little.

You’re probably getting the idea at this point.

I quit Taekwondo.

I don’t even know why I decided to stop taking those lessons although I do remember being soooo afraid.

Why was I so afraid that time?

I was afraid that I’m going to be all alone.

When I was a kid, I used to follow what my sister does all the time. Some people might relate as well. I have no idea why, but I do whatever she says or go wherever she goes, being her own tail.

I don’t get to have my own decisions. I don’t know how to decide on my own that time.

So when my sister decided to stop training, you know what I did. Plus, we just received our yellow belts that time!

Up to now, I was still thinking about what if I continued Taekwondo. When we were talking about it last night, my mom told me that I was about to compete for the first time when I left. Imagine what should’ve happened if I didn’t.

Imagine what belt I should’ve been wearing if I was not tailing on my sister.

Imagine how strong I should be right now if I didn’t let fear capture me.

Remember this, don’t be enslaved by your own fear. Don’t let it manipulate your life because soon enough, you’ll end up questioning yourself just like me right now.

I do know that nothing is too late and that I could start over again, but I just thought of how things would’ve been if I let myself speak for my own choices.

Your turn! What is that one thing you regret doing/not doing? Share your thoughts in the comments!

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Love over Fear

Have a great day/afternoon/night!


Shuffle Song #1: EON BREAK by Virtual Self

Hi! How are you?

Welcome to the my new segment, the Shuffle Song Picks. I will be featuring here some of the music I listen to. They may be the best, they may be a little weird for your ears. Besides, it’s in shuffle! 😉

For my first pick, may I present to you EON BREAK.

Virtual Self is an alter ego Porter Robinson made where he creates music that is different from his signature sound (hence the name). While Robinson’s genre is Synthpop mixed with other electronic genres like Indie Pop, French House and Electro, Virtual Self is more on Nu-Trance, Hard Trance and Speedcore. The tracks that he made under this alias definitely reminds me of the sounds of some old video games and I suggest playing his EP, Virtual Self, while gaming (even if I’m not knowledgeable with gaming). Porter Robinson, however, is a big fan of video games (most specially Dance Dance Revolution) which could possibly be his inspiration for producing the track.

It is a very interesting track so I highly suggest you to listen to it!

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I love Porter Robinson.

Let me know what you think about my song pick in the comments! Do you think you will listen to more Virtual Self after hearing it?

Have a beautifully awesome day!


Time For Change

As I said on my last post, I’m cutting my hair short. I did it!

I’ve always been curious about how I would look like with this kind of hair style. To explain it all to you, it is a pixie cut with (I guess) a double side bangs. I don’t know if you get the picture, but I just asked the hairdresser to do the Hazel Grace haircut. Maybe that’s simpler.

I don’t actually know if my hair looks like Hazel Grace, though. Anyways, I’ve never had the exact same haircut that I wanted. On the bright side, I actually like it.

The thought of cutting my hair really short just came up to me because of how sweaty I got during the summer with my old short hair. I can’t do a ponytail with it so I had to put it all down. I also had a hard time doing sports with it because I only wore headbands (yeah, I could just clip them or use some rios to put my hair in place but I don’t know how). I know that those reasons are too shallow. I also thought about doing this because I want change. I want to be different. I want to challenge myself and experience new things. As soon as I thought about it, I became spontaneous and quickly asked my mom if I could get my hair shorter and as soon as I already had it short, I began to fear what others would think of me.

So far, my family is happy about the outcome. They say that I looked like a volleyball player that got shrunk. I guess I will take that as a compliment. My friends, I would not say that they liked it 😂. As soon as I sent them a picture, one of my friends said that I looked like a lesbian (which I expect them to say that).

Since this is a really big change to me, I expect to receive the weirdest reactions once I get back to school again (which is in 2 days) although I still don’t know what to answer back. If one guy asks if I’m a lesbian, what would I say? “Thanks?” That would be a weird one, wouldn’t it? I’m still thinking of a good answer that would tell them to go f*ck off and I’m not a lesbian. Maybe the first one might sound harsh.

I would love to hear your advices. Yes, I still haven’t been outside and only one had said this comment but I just wanna be ready because I know that more teasing will occur. I hope you’ll help me out in the comments x

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I’m not a lesbian. I only have short hair.

Have a great day!


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